Numbness

I feel numb.

Numb to anything and everything around me.

Everyone around me moving so fast.

Accomplishing so much.

I'm here.

Standing still to all around me.

Not feeling happy or sad.

In a state of empty.

My 2012 Bucket List

Better late than never right?
Let's hope I can do all these!

~Travel somewhere exciting
~Get an internship
~Save money
~Get it shape
~Find my "thing" to be good at

My Life as of now

School started up again yesterday.

Buying textbooks sucks. I better use them all a whole lot and my brain better retain every word in those suckers.

Christmas break was the best ever.

I love my new coat and how it makes me look trendier than ever. Go Costco!

Yep still single as ever...this is becoming a reoccuring theme in my life, but you can't have everything right?

My hair is getting longer which is becoming a dilemma...let it grow or keep it short(er)?

The gym is a friend that I haven't seen in quite some time...like since before finals week...shhh don't tell...but I guess it's time to join with every other person on the planet and become reunited with good 'ole Gold's.

Nothing worse than coming back from a break and having to go GROCERY SHOPPING.

I was going strong on not getting sick this school year...well so much for that record.

I'm determined to take up snowboarding...I'll be a natural right?

Graduation is in a year from this semester...freaking out a bit? Yeah maybe a little.

TV shows starting up again...life is good again.

New Years Resolutions have never been good for me so I saw on my cousin made a "Bucket List" for the year because that sounds way better...stay tuned for mine.

I'm seriously loving my classes so far.

Experimenting with my new 100 colors of eyeshadow. Don't laugh if I look like a clown one day...I'm just experimenting.

I love my sisters.

Not sure why but one of my favorite shows is Ghost Hunters...judge away...I'm not sure if I believe in "ghosts" but the show is still cool.

I've decided that I'm going to go back to my super blonde hair color...PLATINUM!

I definitely have taken for granted how great going to a church school is...I love it!

Along with that, I definitely take for granted all the privileges I do get from the church.

Toms are still my favorite shoes...if you don't have some, you are missing out on feet comfortness.

There is by far, nothing better than going to bed early(ier). I forgot what waking up feeling refreshed feels like!

Being sick away from home is WAY worse than being sick when your mom will take care of you.

This is going to be a good semester...I can already feel it!

If Only

One in a Million

She was so good, but I was scared

That nothing ever lasts for long

They say it's better to have loved and lost

But I couldn't bear to lose it all

So back and forth, I dragged it on

And she didn't know what was wrong

And it wasn't that obvious to me

No, I didn't want to get to close

But still I didn't want to let her go

It seems we always end up hurting in the end

But then I threw all caution to the wind

And I opened up and let her in

And now she's got me high as the ceiling

Cuz she's one in a million

It felt so good to hold her close

Like it was almost worth the risk

Sometimes it's better to leave it alone

But I couldn't at a time like this

And she grabbed my hand and pulled me through

Though I didn't expect her to

Why wasn't it obvious to me?

No, I didn't want to get to close

But still I didn't want to let her go

It seems we always end up hurting in the end

But then I threw all caution to the wind

And I opened up and let her in

And now she's got me high as the ceiling

Cuz she's one in a million

And like a soldier she held strong

And swore she'd never run away

Though she could have come and gone

No, she stayed

No, I didn't want to get too close

But still I didn't want to let her go

It seems we always end up leaving in the end

But then I stopped looking for a sign

And I took that girl and made her mine

And now she's got me high as the ceiling

Cuz she's one in a million

-Nik Day

The Hardest Thing

Slightly Obsessed. May or may not have listened to this song over and over and over.

Gratitude

I'm Grateful for:

*My health

*My family

*My friends

*My opportunities

*My job

*My car

*My computer

*My music

*My education

*My bed

*My phone

*My parents

*My sisters

*My brothers

*My hair

*My toothbrush

*My socks

*My guitar

*My talents

*My parent's netflix subscription

*My Heavenly Father

*My Savior

*My religion

*My ability to be warm

*My gym pass

*My childhood friends

*My huge extended family

*My ideas/ability to think

*My ability to remember

*My five senses

*My ability to express myself

*My willingness to forgive

*My overwhelming amount of love

*My ability to love others