If Only

One in a Million

She was so good, but I was scared

That nothing ever lasts for long

They say it's better to have loved and lost

But I couldn't bear to lose it all

So back and forth, I dragged it on

And she didn't know what was wrong

And it wasn't that obvious to me

No, I didn't want to get to close

But still I didn't want to let her go

It seems we always end up hurting in the end

But then I threw all caution to the wind

And I opened up and let her in

And now she's got me high as the ceiling

Cuz she's one in a million

It felt so good to hold her close

Like it was almost worth the risk

Sometimes it's better to leave it alone

But I couldn't at a time like this

And she grabbed my hand and pulled me through

Though I didn't expect her to

Why wasn't it obvious to me?

No, I didn't want to get to close

But still I didn't want to let her go

It seems we always end up hurting in the end

But then I threw all caution to the wind

And I opened up and let her in

And now she's got me high as the ceiling

Cuz she's one in a million

And like a soldier she held strong

And swore she'd never run away

Though she could have come and gone

No, she stayed

No, I didn't want to get too close

But still I didn't want to let her go

It seems we always end up leaving in the end

But then I stopped looking for a sign

And I took that girl and made her mine

And now she's got me high as the ceiling

Cuz she's one in a million

-Nik Day

The Hardest Thing

Slightly Obsessed. May or may not have listened to this song over and over and over.

Gratitude

I'm Grateful for:

*My health

*My family

*My friends

*My opportunities

*My job

*My car

*My computer

*My music

*My education

*My bed

*My phone

*My parents

*My sisters

*My brothers

*My hair

*My toothbrush

*My socks

*My guitar

*My talents

*My parent's netflix subscription

*My Heavenly Father

*My Savior

*My religion

*My ability to be warm

*My gym pass

*My childhood friends

*My huge extended family

*My ideas/ability to think

*My ability to remember

*My five senses

*My ability to express myself

*My willingness to forgive

*My overwhelming amount of love

*My ability to love others

Halloween

I've decided Halloween isn't as fun as an adult as it was as a kid but it was pretty fun this year! K and I dressed up as Crayons and had a blast!

Writing a Halloween poem during the relay race!

He was a thunder cloud...haha!

DON'T MESS. GANGSTA!

C is our Favorite!

ROOMIES!

YEAH YEAH YEAH!

LOVE HER!

Hope you all had a wonderful Halloween and didn't eat too much candy cause I sure did!

Thoughts by Me

Life is hard.

I love eating.

Toms are my favorite pair of shoes.

I love my friends. A lot.

I don't like doing things I'm not good at.

Confronting people is something I'm not good at.

Pretty sure I would die without watching a little TV.

Having a crush is fun, but frustrating when you want more.

Sleeping with the window open is the best.

Except when they garbage truck comes at 7 AM.

Nothing better than having a friend you can tell ANYTHING.

I love my ward.

I love the gospel.

My hair is growing and it's so great.

There's nothing like having friends you know care about you. A lot.

I wish I was better at relationships.

Carmel popcorn is really good.

Cherry 7up for 1.00 is an amazing deal.

Pumpkin spice egg nog isn't as good as original egg nog.

I just wish he would think about me like I think about him.

I love skinny jeans.

Pretty sure I would die without my friends.

I love spending weekends with my family.

I have a new love of dogs.

But they still scare me.

I wish I was more fit.

Crackle toe nail polish is so cool.

I love wearing my glasses.

My roommate loves love and it's definitely rubbing off on me.

I get jealous very easily.

I'm the driver of my life.

Doing crafts is a new hobby of mine.

There is nothing like having a water bottle you can't drink enough out of.

I hate GE classes.

I love talking to my cousin. She's definitely one of my best friends.

Holding hands is something I want to do like right now.

I know where I am in my life is exactly the right place for me right now.

Procrastination is something I'm definitely an expert at.

I wish I could read people's thoughts, it would make life so much easier.

Reminiscing the past is great but sad.

I love my job. most of the time.

Life is good.

Sometimes

Sometimes you just need to vent about life.
Sometimes you just need to talk things out.
Sometimes life doesn't go how you want it to.
Sometimes you don't need to stress.
Sometimes you do.
Sometimes you need to understand why.
Sometimes you don't.
Sometimes just listening can be the best therapy.
Sometimes things can get annoying and frustrating.
Sometimes life isn't fair.
Sometimes you just have to get up and get over it.
Sometimes things do go your way.
Sometimes lyrics to a song say exactly how you feel.
Sometimes you need someone in your life who will listen.
Sometimes all you need is love.
Sometimes you don't feel like doing it, but you do it anyway.
Sometimes things seem too difficult.
Sometimes people leave, but they come back.
Sometimes moving on is best.
Sometimes getting your hopes up is setting yourself up for heartbreak.
Sometimes it's not.
Sometimes everything in life goes your way.
Sometimes all you need is a good friend.
Sometimes seeing you brings back those feelings I've been trying to hide.
Sometimes bad boys break hearts.
Sometimes you will get through it no matter how hard it is.
Sometimes it will be worth it cause that's what love is.

Inspiration

I know that the leaders of the church are inspired and receive that inspiration from God. Today I got a calling and it's a calling that I honestly would never have wanted to do. Visiting Teaching is something that I don't particularly have a testimony in and I've said that a lot before. Well, God is aware of where I need to improve and apparently it's in Visiting Teaching. My calling is a Visiting Teacher District Leader which means that I have to go around and put together the visiting teaching report to give to the Relief Society President. I don't particularly like Visiting Teaching so this will be good for me to learn to love it and gain a testimony in it. Also, I know that leaders are inspired to say things to us from God. I had an interview with my bishop today and he said some things that were exactly what I needed to hear and what I've been thinking about. God does know me and knows the things that I need and he works through the leaders of his church.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yDNa-ecUm64&feature=related

Things Will NEVER Be the Same

I know I have a post already like this but this seems to be happening quite frequently in my life lately it seems. My best friend since 8th grade just jumped on the bandwagon and got hitched. I'm so happy for C and S! They are a great looking couple and I wish them the best!

Sadly, things will not be the same for us. Some things that I will miss:

~Having sleepovers with 5 of us spooning in C's bed.

~ALWAYS going up to C's house and doing whatever

~Making delicious food

~Running around the neighborhood

~Riding scooters everywhere

~Helping C with her jobs so we could play

I know it's part of growing up but having her married is going to be especially hard for me. I know we'll still keep in touch and it's going to be great! Love you C!

Too School for Cool

Ok so I'm not really too cool for school. In fact, I'm loving school right now and I'm hoping I feel the same at the end of the semester! I'm so excited for all my classes and I feel like this semester is going to be a great one! I think I've finally found what I'm interested in and let's hope that it sticks. I'm taking a Human Development class and I think it is going to be one of the best classes I've ever taken. The teacher loves what he's teaching and I know that it's going to be great. Plus I've heard great things about him and the class, so I'm going into it with high hopes and expectations. From what it seems right now, most of my classes are going to overlap in content and it's good when that happens because remembering facts is so much easier. It's going to be so great!! I'm also working this semester and hopefully that goes good. Things have changed a bit around there so it's going to take some getting used to but it will be just fine once everything is figured out.

One thing that I also have high hopes for is my ward. From what it seems in the past 5 days I've been in it, the people are just so great! Also, I've been blessed with awesome roommates! They are all so great! Everyone that I've met so far is super nice and down to earth. None of the "I'm better than you" feelings that I've gotten in previous wards. Everyone is so welcoming and is looking to become friends with everyone. Our bishop talked to us at ward prayer on Sunday and said that our ward is our family away from home and these people really take that to heart. We've already been invited to do stuff with the ward and it's just so fun to feel like we belong. I know that this year is going to be so great but I have to put in my effort to make it great. I can't wait for what more is to come!

Pictures at FHE:

K and I

Roommates

Wardies

Best Friends

It's Been a While

Well it's been a while since I've last blogged. I know, I know I'm a slacker and half but I'm ready to change! Summer has been a crazy mess of things and I've been super, crazy busy with things! I can't believe that it's all coming to an end in 3 short days. I'm feeling bitter sweet about it all because I love being down at school and having a super fun social life but at the same time, I love my job here and I'm going to miss it regardless of how much I hated it some days. I've just learned so much about everything this Summer and I know that I came home to be able to learn all that I have. Here are some highlights:

1. Fourth of July at Bear Lake: It's a tradition in my family to go to Bear Lake for the 4th. At the resort we stay at, they have lots of things going on that day and we tend to do quite well in winning those. We've won the sand sculpting competitions, volleyball, and this year we won the sidewalk chalk drawing competition thanks to M's mother who is an amazing artist! Thanks K!

2. Girls trip to ST. GEORGE!: ok so this was so much fun! It was a much needed trip and I couldn't have asked for a better time! 3 days of laying out in the sun, shopping and pedicures and not to mention TONS of eating. It was so much fun to spend time with my girls K, M, and J. Here are some crazy pics from the week:







3. Birthday at Bear Lake: Every year we do a big family trip to Bear Lake with my mom's side of the family. 50+ people, 4 condos, 2 boats, and it might be chaotic but it's tons of fun. It always happens to fall on my birthday every year so I get to spend my day with the people I love. It was such a great day! I basically spent my whole day on the boat but it was exactly what I would've wanted anyway. One exciting thing that happened is that I got up on one ski! It was my first time actually staying up for longer than 2 seconds! So exciting! Hopefully pictures will come later of that trip.

4. Working at my job: I know I've already posted about my job but it has been one of the best experiences I've had. I've done so much with those kids and we've definitely had some not so good times but it's been an adventure, one I'll never forget.







I can't wait to see what this new school year will bring! Hopefully it will be just as good as my summer has been!

And they call me Miss B. (Name abbreviated)

I'm home for the Summer and just started a new job at a daycare. My first week was literally the worst thing ever. I didn't know what I was doing....still don't....and I just felt like I didn't fit and it wasn't going to work out. After getting through those first few weeks, I've learned to love it. Yes there are still hard times and some of the kids drive me nuts but I don't think anything has ever given me so much joy than working with these kids.

There are good times and there are bad times but the good times definitely trump the bad. These kids make going to work every day worth it. They are becoming some of my best friends and I know it's going to be super hard when I have to leave to move back to school. So I need to just enjoy these kids while I can!

Missing Out

Well kids, today this girl:

And this boy:

are getting married!!

Super sad I'm not going to be able to be there...stupid expensive flights and poor college student status. But anyways, I just wanted to give a shout out to K and M and let them know how excited I am for them and how happy I am for them to start their life together. Don't get me wrong, I'm super duper sad that I don't get to live with K anymore and I think that's the hardest part of this whole situation but I'm excited for them to finally be together forever. I love them both and can't wait to see pictures and hear everything about their special day. Whoo!! Love and Miss you both!

All Good Things Must Come to an End

Yeah, that's right. This school year is coming to a close and I'm closing another chapter in my life. Everything I've known for the past 2 years is changing.

1. I'm moving out of my apartment I've lived in for 2 years
2. I won't be living with any of my original roommates
3. K. and K are married/getting married.
4. My summer will be spent at home with my family.
5. All my roommates this year except one aren't going to be my roommate next year.

I've said before that change is good but this time, I'm not so sure if I can say that. These past few years have been great and I'm never going to forget all the laughs, tears, surprises, sad times, exciting times and the best of times. Here are some things that I will always remember:

It makes me quite sad it's all coming to an end but it makes me even more excited for what's to come!

Life's Not Fair is Right....

While I'm stuck studying my brains out with this....

My family decides to do this....

Fair? I think not.

Oh...what a Week

Well, let's just say that this week hasn't been my best. In fact, it definitely goes into the category of worst. But, I'm not writing to complain and make everyone feel sorry and sad for my poor little life. I just want to let you know somethings that I have learned:

I've learned that life never goes as planned
I've learned that people always surprise you.
I've learned that procrastinating is always a kick in the butt.
I've learned that a day planner would probably be a good investment for me.
I've learned that the library and I have a love/hate relationship.
I've learned that it's really important to set goals for yourself.
I've learned that no matter how much I try to tell myself or pretend, I will always hate my humanities class.
I've learned that it's super awkward when you pass your professor and he's the one to say your name first.
I've learned that I would be a lot better off with more sleep.
I've learned that reading before a class really pays off.
I've learned that sometimes changing your plans can be for the better.
I've learned that life wasn't meant to be easy.
I've learned that I've come a long way but I still have a lot further to go.
I've learned that power steering makes a world of difference.
I've learned that I cannot go to bed with wet hair.
I've learned that I can do anything if I put my mind to it.

This week has been rough but I've really learned a lot.
Remember: "Sometimes things have to fall apart, so other things can fall into place."

Thoughts

Just some things I've been thinking about...

Netflix is probably the best invention ever.
Snow was my favorite; now it's overrated.
This semester isn't going fast enough.
I want my worry free childhood back.
I have a love/hate relationship with the munchies...depending on what food I have.
I also have a love/hate relationship with the Bachelor.
I waste way too much time watching TV shows.
All my friends are dropping like flies and getting married.
I love online "window" shopping.
I love buying new socks...especially colored ones.
There's nothing better than clean hair.
I wish that I lived in the 20's...great style.
Singing in the Rain is one of my favorite movies.
Family makes a crappy week wonderful.
Cereal makes the morning worth waking up for.
I wish I knew what I was doing with my life.
There's never enough money for what I want.
Go-Gurts are really good frozen.
Summer plans make me extra excited for school to be over.
I wish I was a fearless child.
A round-off back handspring has been a goal of mine for as long as I can remember.
Change comes much too often.
Celine Dion is one of the best singers ever.
I wish I could dance.
As much as I hate to admit it, I'm obsessed with shoes.
Why is confronting people so hard?
Sudoku is my way of wasting time but I convince myself it's not wasting time because I'm working my brain.
Fingernail polish is an obsession.
I hate early mornings.
I love late night/early morning chats.
Feet are disgusting.
Boys are confusing.
I've needed my hair highlighted for quite few months now and it's driving me nuts.
I wish life was simpler.
I hate exercising but wish I didn't.
Doughnuts are going to kill me.
I love wearing new jeans.
I would die without my straightener.
I want a six pack.
I always plan for life to not go as planned and it always does.
People are confusing.
I'm excited to one day get married.
I can't wait to be a mom.
I don't know what I would do without great friends and family in my life.

Thanks for reading!!!

Date with Harold

Yep that's right folks. I'm officially dating. His name is Harold.

He's perfect. He's always there for me into the late hours of the night, through anything he's always there and he encourages me to do my homework!

That's right. Harold B. Lee Library and me are getting to become the greatest of friends. Here's some pictures of our date last night!

Don't we look so great together???

Forgetful and Angry

Tuesdays are definitely one of my most favorite days of the week. No, it's not because I have less classes or work or anything particularly exciting happens. In fact, I have to work every Tuesday at 7am which for me not being a morning person is a huge problem. No, Tuesdays aren't my favorite because of anything having to do with my personal routine or life for that matter. Tuesdays are my favorite for one reason and one reason only. My favorite TV shows air on Mondays making them available for me to watch on Tuesdays. Yes, I love Tuesdays because I get to watch TV, on my computer of course.

Walking to school/work today, I was pretty exciting to hurry and complete everything that I was required to do so that by 11:00am, I would be able to relax and enjoy wasting my time. I frantically left class hurrying to the library to get one of the comfy chairs to sit and soak in my TV time. Well got to the library and the comfy chairs were taken. Made me a little angry but not that much. Found myself a nice cubical in the back corner instead. Excitedly opened my computer. Reached into my backpack to find....wait a second. I FORGOT MY HEADPHONES. So much for watching anything. I can't even do some of my homework that is due tonight cause of the lack a personal listening device. So now I sit still having over an hour to waste. Bah. Couldn't be angrier with myself.

Gymnastics or Bust

I don't know what it is but lately I've been obsessed with gymnastics. I'm not sure why. It probably is because I have an obsession with a ABCFamily show called Make it or Break it. It's about competitive gymnasts and their life constantly in the gym practicing. I discovered it last year and I've loved watching the first 2 seasons. Can't wait for it to start up again.

Because of my new found obsession, I decided to try out the beginning gymnastic class. I took tumbling when I was younger and I didn't think that it would be that difficult for me to pick it up again. Well, the content isn't that hard but my body is a little different now than it was say 8 or more years ago. After the first day of doing summersaults and learning to "stick it," my body was/is shot. All of my muscles hurt. But, needless to say, I'm loving it. Today for example, we were doing our end of class strength training and one of the trainings is a pull over on the low bar. It just what gymnasts do to get their body on top of the bar. Our teacher has an assistant that was there spotting people, helping them to be able to do it. I walked up to do it and he said, "We've got a gymnast here!" and I said, "Well, we'll see!" and then he said, "Well you should be one cause you're built like one!" I just started laughing! Me! A gymnast because of my build?!? Well shoot! That just means me and gymnastics were made for each other. A relationship I wouldn't mind developing!

New Love

I'm a little embarrassed to say but I have found a new love and we call him JB. Yep you guess right, my new love is Justin Bieber. Am I ashamed? A little. Is that going to stop me from jamming out and loving his songs? Probably not. My friend M made a monumental discovery today and I have to say that I am starting to agree. JB is this generations MJ. Crazy? Maybe a little but there is some truth. Read here to see what she has to say about it. If you disagree, you haven't given him a chance. Listen to this and see if I maybe change your mind a little.

Never Know What to Say

I think this is definitely the third blog I've started. I always give up on them cause I really have no idea what to say. I always try to say something profound or creative but it just makes me sound stupid like I'm trying to hard. So, I've given up on trying so hard. I'm just going to write what I want about what I want.

Today was an alright day for 3 reasons:

1. One of my best friend/roommate/practically-a-sister left

2. Work was crazy--people didn't show up

3. I had 2 classes today. One was 2 hours and felt extra long. The other was practically a waste of time.

What made today great:

1. I actually brought a lunch to school

2. Made paninis with my Panini maker for dinner

3. Went to Coldstone

4. Played my guitar--something I have been wanting to do but haven't had the time

5. Spent time with great friends, laughing and loving life.

Looks like the greats outweigh the not-so-greats. I guess my day was a pretty good day after all. Whoda thunk?