Just thinking.

 I graduate from college in a few months and I'll admit, I'm slightly terrified. I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I have so many things that I want to do but I almost don't know how to get there. 

I'm so used to my life now. Everything is spelled out for me, to an extent. Once I picked my major, it was so simple and it felt like my life was all put in place. I just chose the most interesting classes and life was planned for a few months. 

But "real life" isn't that easy. I may have a list of jobs I want but it's not like I can choose my favorite and boom, life is planned. I don't even know how to go about getting real job. I feel lost without knowing how to even begin getting found. 

I like my life now. It's comfortable and easy. It hasn't always been that way; I had to work my butt off to get to where I am. But starting a new stage is starting over. I don't like big changes. Especially ones that take away the people I've come so close to. 

 I thought coming here would change everything and my life would go as I planned. If there is one thing that I learned throughout college is that life NEVER goes as planned. Nothing ever seems to work out like I think it will. But I also learned that it ALWAYS does work out. 

There is a plan for me and I just have to find it.